Insomnia

I'm living under pressure. there's a big huge burden in my heart, lots of mind thinking, tension on decision and future planning.
a sigh tells all. =/
I can't get what I wished,I never have a dream comes true.


had a sleepless night yesterday, and some images of those days flew through
went I was young as a kid, I used to have insomniac nights with the reasons even me myself don't know
well, do you guys faced that?
late night when everyone's in their sweet dream,I'm still awake,mentally physically and emotionally awake.
Forcing myself to the dreamland doesn't work well. I heard the clear sounds or voices in the night, of the clock tick-tocking, water dip-droping.. everything seems so crystal clear
I hate that feeling of staying awake,listening to the sounds; which ain't lovely at all.
at that time,I will do something bad,really bad--wake up my family members,my parents,my dad especially.
I wanted them to notice,there's me still awake,I can't fall asleep.

therefore, I walk in and out from the room to the kitchen and washroom.
every move seems to be louder at these night, and I did it on purpose, sound of clicking on the lights,flashing away in the washroom,walking with heavy steps like a giant.
and these usually wakes my dad up. he's acknowledge with this, yesh!
either with a hot milo done by him or just one/two sentences said by him, I went back to bed..and it gonna take me to my dreamland after 5minutes.
am I weirdo?

ya,there were few times,probably they were very tired and I can't wake them up with these crazy moves.
I'm not a good one,I don't give up with that. I went into their room, shook them up, crying and telling them I can't fall asleep. nanana, I'm really really bad right?
and probably will get scolded by mom, but who cares? at least you know my problem.

yesterday,I had the same thing,insomnia. reminds me of what I did last time.
as for yesterday, I almost did the same thing,almost. I walk in and out, drinking water, going to washroom, and rolling on my bed for few hours. The child grew up,she didn't wake up her mom

As for yesterday,I know the reason very well, I'm stressed and can't sleep well. and thanks to that, I'm still under depression and so blur with everything. sigh.
by the way,they're sooo sooo sooo handsome =D

  talk to me with some other stuffs, crapping with me will release my stress; 

do ya people and don't mention this moron stressful thingy to me,I don't know how to respond on this